My smoking and not smoking diary!

Kaytee576 · My smoking and not smoking diary!

Hi all, well what a nightmare time I am having! I want to quit smoking so badly, I have smoked since I was 17 and I am now 25, my fiance smokes too and we both want to stop, there is a history of cancer in my family and his and heart disease in mine too

We both want to be together as long as possible and not live to regret the fact that we kept smoking and god forbid in years to come one of us becomes really ill.
So today was day number one! I wanted to write this diary to share my experience and if I manage it maybe it will help others?

Today we tried going "Cold turkey" With no help just quitting...well I am awful im telling you, I went back to bed, got up, cried, went back to bed and in the end we gave in

We have had two cigarettes today would usually be a lot more but its a start.

Tomorrow I am going to see the nurse at my doctors for support, I am going to get something to help such as gum, or lozenges, the patches are supposed to be good but unfortunately they didnt agree with me in the past.

THIS TIME I WILL DO IT! so stay with me! Will let you know how my appointment goes and fingers crossed.....

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well i hope the best for you and i hope u quit smoking..keep trying..i will be praying for you

Angels-quest

Well I'm sure you can do it, but it wont be easy, you know that alreday huh.
They say the real bad craving lasts two to three minutes each time, so if you can maybe hang onto that thought & hopefully after the 2-3 minutes it will get a little easier.

Have you tried chewing gum everytime you fancy a ciggie?

keep us posted, might be needing to re read it in time to come when i give up LOL

Hugs,

Kaytee576

Well I must add that tomorrow is now quit day! I went to the doctors and they didnt have the gum i needed in so I picked it up today!
My gum is high strength and I was so shocked when the nurse did a carbon dioxide test and the level in my blood was high...well I guess it would be

So wish me luck and I pray the gum will help me tomorrow! xxx

PS sis, I hope someday you can quit but gawd it is hard especially if you live with someone who smokes...we will get there in the end! xxx

Kaytee576

My gosh what a day so far

The gum really works to stop the craving but my gawd does it burn my throat

maybe the strength of the gum is to high so I will have to chat to my nurse about it.

I was feeling OK, I cleaned the window seals and windows, hoovered everywhere, removed the fan that we have on whilst smoking so it wasn't sitting looking at me, I cleaned the hoover out as it has no bags and loads of filters....then I decided to take my dogs for a wee in the garden, and not being with it I somehow didnt clip my cavalier Rosie's lead on properly, She heard a dog coming (by the rattle if its lead) and PING the lead was off,

Couldn't believe it a car missed her by a few foot and stopped quick The road has a one way system but is right outside our flat.
Then when Rosie had made it to the dog my other dog Kaytee went for it as I was trying to put Rosie's lead on

The man glared at me, Don't think he heard me saying sorry as the barking was so loud and whilst all this was going on my skirt was falling off as it is too big

AHHHH

Then I shouted at Rosie, shouted at Paul my fiance and grabbed the nicotine gum...Not the same

I then went to get my ferrets out of my bedroom to put them back in their cage after two hours play and stepped in something nasty they did by the door, which they never do....I didnt realise till I had walked round the room hunting for them...

IS someone against me??? Well I will keep being strong, I am sitting with my coffee and gum

I am dreading Easterners and big brother as I smoke when that is on...Oh well Ill shut up..roll on tomorrow I WILL NOT GIVE IN! xx

queenmaria

this is probably totally unhelpful, but a friend and I have both stopped biting our nails by pretending that our crush is watching us. Since your fiance accually there watching you that won't really work. Maybe your mother is watching you? "Tsk, tsk, no fresh-baked cookies for you young lady!" (I dunno, is your mom a cookie baking type?)

Kaytee576

Thanks queenmaria and everyone for your help, Well quitting completely drove me mad

So I went bit easier on myself and decided to cut down! It seemed to be the only way round it, if I knew I could never have a cigarette I couldn't cope with it and got panicky and upset, but knowing that it is there if I am desperate for a cig really helped, now I am down to about 6 a day from 20 odd! GETTING THERE!.....

Perdita

I finally gave up smoking for good nearly 7 years ago, I used nicotine patches for only 2 weeks. The first two days I did not quite know what to do with my hands and I sat on them, but after that I was fine. I was obviously ready to quit, what helped me too was the quote:
NEVER GIVE UP GIVING UP. Good luck, keep on trying, it is good for your health and purse

Kaytee576

Thanks Perdita, I am sure I will do it someday, I always seem to find an excuse which is a shame

I have still cut down a lot so must be better then nothing.
Well done with quitting perdita! I will get there too someday xxx

Kaytee576

Well its a long time since I posted this...ooops still smoking, but hey im down to 8 a day round about that number which is a lot better and I shall keep on trying!

Angels-quest

Perdita

Well done for cutting down, it is a step in the right direction.

Have you tried any nicotine replacement articles to try to stop alltogether? I know you can do it, because you have done so much towards it already. NEVER GIVE UP GIVING UP

Kaytee576

Welcome Back Perdita so nice to hear from you

Yeah I did try nicotine patches and I tried the gum at a separate time to that but didnt get on to well I don't think I was in the right frame of mind to quit completely

I have still cut down and am working on giving up all together! Thanks for your support all! xxx

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