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Posted: Sat Dec 08, 2007 7:54 pm

Well I've been doing really good. But Now I started doing something else. I've been pushing myself to hard. Like running till I puke or doing pushups or situps till I can't anymore. I tell myself its exercise and thats good, but i don't think its normal. I'm also not taking medications like asprin and stuff. So I can keep the headache. I don't think its healthy.

Site Admin Joined: 08 Apr 2007 Posts: 261 Location: UK

Oh Maria, I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling, I am so glad you came to talk to us.
You are right to realise that what you are doing isn't good for you,
You have done SO well to stop harming yourself with the cutting, Sadly somehow in giving that up you have found another way to punish and cause yourself harm, I am no expert but I would say this is something many others have done and a normal reaction, it is just such a shame but NOT YOUR FAULT.

I think this more so when I read that you do not take medications so you can keep the headache and keep the pain, I feel the pain acts as a relief for you, whether you realise it or not you blame yourself for the past and whether it is in your conscious mind or subconscious the physical pain helps you to deal with the pain inside. I wish there was some way I could wash away all the bad times from inside your mind and make you see nothing that happened was your fault, Of course I wasn't there but this is how I feel from what you have told us in the past.

I may be talking rubbish as always

and I am only going by my own opinion.
You are probably suffering the headaches from pushing yourself too far, past your bodies limit.
Running till you are sick is NOT a good sign hun, your body is trying to tell you to slow down, do you sometimes feel dizzy too? faint? Are you eating?

Sorry to ask so many questions, As you said exercise is good but in moderation, you need to know your limits and push yourself to stop instead of to keep going. As hard as it all is I know you can do it, you have got through so much and you are stronger then you think.

Please let us know how you are if you want to I am always here for you.

Sending a hug your way xxx